A wise man once told me
“The solution to fear is more risk, not less.”
Don’t be distracted by the paraphernalia of meditation (this cushion, that bell, a specific period of time, complete quiet, etc.) This is our ego stepping in to run the show. But it’s the practice itself, not the particulars, that matters.
One of the liberating aspects of the practice is that you always have everything you need to do it, with you, inside you.